Viva Forever...

It's been a long time since i've updated the blog...too lazy...and G has been askin' me to post for quite sometime now...so came up with somethin' today, finally...quite surprising as nothin' usually happens in my boring life..: No, its not about the viva forever song by the spice girls, nor is it about the chocolate drink:D...yeah u guessed right, its the dreaded viva-voce..the questioning sessions that accompanies the even more dreaded lab exams... I happened to go through..i mean actually went through 2 such sessions...and well learnt a pretty good lesson...'VIVAS are not a joke'(see, that's a mistake i made..underestimated 'em:)..u know nothing, then what you're about to read is how screwed up your viva can get if you are absolutely clueless about the subject you're dealin' with!!! Let's keep the best one last..i.e my lab viva..(maan :))it was ridiculous)...here goes my w/s 'experiance'...what's given in brackets is what i'm thinking, an example of how nonsensical unrelated stuff can run through your mind even when your attendin' something important...in short, how perfectly well i concentrate... As our batch time was running out, the external asked 2 of us to attend the viva at the same time..i has sree along with me..it was a relief coz she was a buji, so i kinda hoped she would answer all the q's and i would just have to nod my head in agreement:D... Ext: (movin' the answer sheet towards me..like she wanted me to draw somethin')..."Explain how you get a 180 degree phase shift in an RC coupled amplifier"...(wow!!!, i dont knowwwww..i'm gonna make a perfect 1st impression...:(...while she asks sree, "What does the B & C in a BC107 signify"..(hey not fair, that is absolutely not fair, that question was meant for me..life is never fair...if there's anything i knew in w/s, it was about the components..hehe..that's the easiest part in EC)...guess it was out of frustration i started of with the answer...maam B stands for silii...and my voice trails off as she stares at me sayin, "answer your question first"...(aargh!!!)...sree answered the question perfectly...saw the Ext smilin' at her much to my irritation...while i sat there fiddling with the pen and paper...the Ext goes on askin' her about other components and applications while i sit there gettin' restless by the minute...she kept lookin' at me every second to see if i showed any signs of answering the Q...as a last resort i try explaining to her about the workin' of the amplifier (believing some miracle to happen with me ending on the 180 degree answer) , and she says "use the equation Vce=Vcc-IcRc...(yeah right..as if that was a clue..left me even more clueless)...finally i force out an "i dont know"...i end up gettin' an unbelievable stare... The Ext asked us something like what's BMW followed by a number...(car???)...sree an' i kept lookin' at each other helplessly..we were sure it was a component though we didnt know which...finally sree said "maam is it a f..f..f...eee...(..:))..i couldn't help laughin' at that..)...the Ext completed it for her.."yes its a FET"...(...well she tried..and she got it right!!!...what are you doing here now shal???..get lost!!:) Sree was done and maam asked her to leave...i got up too, relieved that it was over...when the Ext said..."where are you going???you're not done yet lady, i've got more questions for you"...(that's not what she said exactly, but that's what she meant...what the hell???...i look at the time..it's past 2 and i was really getting hungry...)...i got to sit with another gal this time...a lateral entry, so i need not tell you about her knowledge...i guess she answered most of the questions, while i sat there nodding a 'yes' or a 'no' even though i wasn't really sure(when was i last time anyways!)...and finally after what seemed like ages, she asked us both to leave, confirming my name and roll number for the 3rd time...(just to make sure she gave me a big zero i suppose!!!) The w/s was only the beginning of the story...the next i.e my lab, is a perfect example of how you 'never' learn from your mistakes!!! I was the first person in my batch, so was asked to attend the viva even before i started with my question... The Ext looked like a nice lady though she did not smile even once...(at the end of the viva, i changed my mind,believe me, looks are really deceptive...really really deceptive...) Ext: (asking me to take a seat)...what is your question? Me: High pass low pass filters maam... Ext: Ok. Now tell me what are bypass capacitors in an RC coupled amplifier used for? Me: (kewl!!!i know that i know that...and with a big grin on my face..)..maam they're used to divert the signal to the ground... Ext: (silence) Me: err...yes that's what it is for...(why is she lookin' at me like that?!..the grin suddenly disappearin' from my face) Ext: Where do the signals go from the ground??? Me: (eh???...do they actually go somewhere?...i didn't think of that earlier)...no it doesn't maam...(takin' a guess) Ext: Then what happens to it???Does all the charges get accumulated there??? Me: (now, even more confused, well i guess it does)...yes maam..(:D) Ext: (givin' me one of her stares, she had huge eyes, so that made it even more scary...)...what are the ideal characteristics of an RC CA??? Me: (not smiling this time)...input impedence high, output impedence low and less noise and distortion...(now i had no idea about what the 1st 2 points meant, heard a gal sayin' that before we got into the lab for the exam..bless her bless her!!!) Ext: That's all??? Me: (Well that's all i know...be satisfied!)...err..yes... Ext: What does input impedence being high mean? Me: (expected that!..lookin' away to aviod her stare)...err..mmmm... Ext: Quick! Me: (defeated)..i dont know... Ext: Did you actually prepare for your viva...why dont u do something...tell me what i should ask you... Me: (I wish i could:D...i didnt say anything...) Ext: What is an IFT??? Me: Intermediate frequency..err...(transistor or transformer???)...transformer maam Ext: ok!(phew!)..and where is it used??? Me: Hartley oscillator...(ha!!had that for the w/s...genius shal!genius) Ext: What is it used for??? Me: (great..i dont know that...well lets see...its 'intermediate frequency' transformer...so gotta be something related to intermediate frequencies...)...(i dont remember what exactly i said, but i'm sure it was some blunder...) Ext: really???..(yes it was a blunder...the 'really?' said it all!) Me: (silence) Ext: Its better you tell me what i should ask you, that would be easier... Me: (too embaressed to answer)... Ext: U can leave...(she looked very satisfied, as though she enjoyed the session very much!...well she didn't have a hard time putting the marks i guess...maybe that's why!) Yeah, those were the 2 unforgettable episodes...screwed both of them up big time...but really. thinkin' of the externals that have to sit through this an entire day, with students givin' them all sorts of answers and new 'discoveries'..:))..well compared to that kinda torture..this wasn't a big deal... Lookin' forward to more 'bloody bullshit' vivas..(courtesy for that vocab in quotes: mac(hehe, thanx yaar, that really expresses it;))

Too bad...:(

I’m becomin’ a pessimistic sadistic idiot these days:(...kewl ryt!!! I really don’t know since when..but I guess it’s after I entered college..the atmosphere there, be it classmates or lecturers or the rules...they’ve all changed me into someone I myself have started despising… Life at school were the best dayz of my life:)...the classes,the corridors,the ambiance and of course my pals...everything was so perfect… And the best among those years were of course 11th and 12th …I guess it’s the same for everyone else too being the last 2 years of school life…fond memories that are etched in ur mind and deny to leave u...(am I sounding a bit too philosophical:D?!) What I remember most were the biology classes...hehe...maan!!! I took up bio only coz it was my favorite subject in 10th...expectin’ it to be as easy in +1 and 2...:))..i was proved wrong right from the beginning...bio turned out to be a nightmare...botany was a huge joke…I never got the names right...there seemed to be a million plants..most of which I hadn’t even heard about...and then zoology..sigh!!!..the labs were fun except for the cockroach part..:...they terrified me..disgusting creatures...they gave us ones that were made unconscious using chloroform…they didn’t kill ‘em…we had to prepare a slide using their leg muscle…I used to feel sick…and the moment I touched them with the forceps they moved their legs…the rest I need not say!!! Maths periods were a hell lotta fun…achu and I used to compete on who would get the answer first…usually I won...but the answer was never ryt:D...and then the way we used to make fun of maam who used to stand in various dance poses while she taught(wonder if anyone noticed that)…and so instead of maths we(just us both) ended up learnin’ a lot of mudras…!!! I don’t remember much of the physics and chemistry classes..was too busy sleepin’ :D…and when I wasn’t I used to keep buggin pooh..poor gal...she never lost her patience with me..amazing!!!..an’ she never used to talk in class too to my annoyance, so I had to make up for it somehow;) English classes were really kewl…well compared to the ones that were havin’ these days:…the plays we had on tempest…where we were divided into groups and given 2 topics...one on Antonio and the other on Prospero..we were the first group to present it and messed it up big time:D…forgot the dialogues…prosperos crown fell off….:))..it was fun!!! And then not to forget the tuitions of course…there too we slept most of the time..especially during chemistry…mariam sree and I used to sit ryt at the back under the fan…what a comfortable spot…and doze off...and the best part, sir never noticed, he was too busy teaching, not once did he notice…weird! Time went by…the dreaded entrance and boards were approaching...everyone became busy...and suddenly it all ended!!! College was never what I expected it to be..’who said school days were the best days, we’ve got college maan, can anything be better than that’???! was what I felt when I got in...now I know the difference...it was nothing like school...the students, their hostility(I don’t mean everyone, but a lot of them that I met during the first few days)...if u didn’t belong to a particular school u couldn’t be in their group...sometimes I couldn’t believe how selfish people can be...some don’t even lend u their notes kinda like lkg kids sayin’ I wont give u my toys!!sigh!!I just can’t comprehend an attitude of that sort!! So im kinda surviving college just bcoz of a few friends who are worth bein’ with...the rest, I hate ‘em all...it’s sad an’ so unlike me:( an’ I hate to admit it too...but it’s true... This was not how things were meant to be, and I couldn’t be more disappointed...reality hurts so badly, but this bad,I never imagined...

Comfort & Joy:)

I was skipping through the channels yesterday around 12 at midnight when i came across a movie in HBO named 'Comfort and Joy' (C&J) by Maggie Greenwald. Now that's the only time i get to watch TV in this age of megaserials where grandma and mom would be glued in front of the TV after 6 pm, shedding tears along with the 'saans and bahu'!!!:...So i usually keep myself as far as possible from the living room for fear of disturbing them in their melodramatic mood. Sometimes it makes me wonder how they do so!!!I find the emotional scenes funny rather than 'emotional'!..hehe Since i wasn't feeling sleepy, i decided on watching the rest of the movie though i've heard neither of the movie nor the director or the actors! ..but i'm really really glad i did! C&J was about a lady named Jane, beautiful, successful, ambitious but single trying to balance her life between her personal ambitions and private fulfillment and her dreams on owning a beautiful family someday. It's Christmas eve and she's returning home when her car crashes and her whole life suddenly takes a new turn. On regaining conscience, to her horror finds herself 10 years from now on Xmas eve married to a man named Sam and having 2 kids! She escapes home trying frantically to find out what happened to her past, only to her dismay she realizes that she no longer has a job, her apartment being occupied by someone else, her boyfriend being married to some other women and that her parents got re-married 5 years ago!!!:))..Even her drivers license has her new address on it! Confused and disheartened she returns 'home' to Sam and the kids trying to sink in the truth of what she was and what she has become now in an unbelieveable sort of way...when her kids exclaim 'mom has gone nuts'!!! :)) She spends the rest of Xmas with Sam and a family who are complete strangers to her only to find herself growing fond of them at the end of the day..realizing this was exactly she wanted her life to be... The movie ends obviously on the fact that Jane was dreaming, finding to her disbelief the man in her dreamz standing right in front of her!!!:)...how sweet!:) This reminds me of Dad trying to discuss with me on my future:D...on what i see for myself 5 years from now!!!Me being the 'perfect' daughter;), i've usually discouraged them coz it almost always ends in the common 'dad and adolescent daughter' quarrel:..and furthermore, leave alone 5 years from now, I havn't even thought about tommorrow which happens to be my physics improvement exam...hmmm:D So c ya later folks...!

Exams...duh:|

At last!!! My 3rd sem university exams have come:(...not that i was awaiting them...they're here, like a bunch of uninvited guests!!! As everyone says..they test your knowledge(my most limited wealth:D)..your skill(on making a sentence an essay)..your memory(the amount that you can by heart) and what not?!...an' i should add, they test my patience too..! Had a chat with kavi(my pal) today..both of us complained together on why we have to bear with them..it's as though they keep haunting us down in various forms...class tests, series, improvement series, university exams, improvement exams...DUH! An' am i actually doin' any sort of work for 'improving'...don't ask!there' no question about it...wonder if anyone is, well maybe a handful of them(sorry..that's not an excuse:D)..as i said in my earlier blogs, im procrastinator no.1! Exams haven't made me any better..i've lost the urge to study..donno why..they've made me even more lazier since entering college..and whats worse???...postpone them to a furthur date, the more happier i am coz now i have more time to waste and waste an' waste..... But i ain' t a couch potato..thank God for that!..i love doing anything other than studying:D! Woke up at 7 today(amazing me)..had to visit the doc for my cold that hasnt left me for about 2 weeks now..went for our last class(S3) at maths tuition..(wonder why i go there now..i dont understand a word)..its like iv've found a way out to distract myself from the terrifying thought of exams..kind of a 'feel better' distraction!..came home at 2..obviously tired physically..not mentally though(dont remember the last time i paid attention in class:D)..had a long nap..and finally opened my maths text at 6:00..thats the only subject that isn't greek in S3..and it wasn't long before i started yawning..fought to bring myself to reality..nah!unsuccessful!!! So finally decided to do what i like doin' most..write:)..to vent out my frustrations on this ruthless killing of youth..and their energy..feels like i've gotten something evil outta me..but that doesn't keep the D-Day from finding me:(..MONDAY!!!..96 hours from now...isnt' that kewl..and an ocean of syllabus to cover..hmm! I guess that's it...wish me 'LUCK'..will be needing it in abundance starting next week:)..c ya!

What a gr8 day!!!

Had a grrrrr88888 day today!!!!! The day turned out so well...an' that too very unexpectedly:) Woke up today morning hoping at least today would turn out 'not bad'..coz i've stopped hopin' for good days...there arnt just any:( Got in class right in time at 8:45..first hour was EC(oh no!!!)..even before i could settle down..."roll no 50 tell me wht are oscillators?"(almost jumped outta my seat)..hadn't it been for the gal sittin' next to me, i would have been the 'out'standing student of the day!phew! Had 3 whole hours of lab..and the day wasn't gettin' any better..the DC source wasn't workin'..the pot had some fault..we weren't gettin' the output and all in all everythin' was getting on my nerves..including the lab assistant(who knows nothing but to scream at us)!!! Finally to my relief..the bell went at 12:45..leaving the lab was like leavin' hell behind!..but i still had my maths assignment to write..being a procrastinator i usually do them at college..dont be surprised! Poor me..had to eat with 1 hand and write with the other..thank god i had a spoon:D It was then that kavi suggested we cut the afternoon class an go to the University to submit our improvement forms..that sounded like a kool idea..far better than sittin' for SSD an' NA!!! Thanks to one of my wonderful and considerate pals..she said she would complete the rest of the assign. for me..i rushed out with kavi and 2 other gals to the bus stop..hoping the princi hadn't seen us bunk! While we were waiting..one of our classmates(mega) called on kavis phone tellin us we needed the princi's signature without which the form wouldnt be considered valid...wht the hell man!!!..angry at ourselves an' determined not to go back to class;)..we decided to head home..but as a last resort, the other gal who was with us called up her brother to enquire..he said we didn't need anything of the signature sort...phew!!! Smilin' at our victory..we boarded the bus to our destination:):) The towering yellow building somehow made me smile..not that i really liked the place(coz it always reminds me of my exams: We went to the fee counter..had arguments over filling up the form..even though we've done it before..collected our receipt and consulted the security standing near the commissioner of exam buliding..had to call him uncle(he was a grandpa actually)..for our sake so that he wouldn't scream at us for our silly doubts..asked us to buy an envelope from some 'ammachi'..went round searchin' for her..finally found her outside the gate..went back to 'uncle' with it..got fired for not puttin' the receipt along with the form..i got fired for sittin' on some place beside the steps..got fired again for not writing the 'application for what on the envelope':D..in short got fired for practically every single thing! All this running around had exhausted us an' we were bankrupt too..didnt know improving was a costly affair..that's an' indirect punishment for bein' lazy:(..went to the canteen..had coffee..felt like heaven..walked round the whole place wasting our time..listened to a hell lot of comments(was really funny though)..whatsoever had a great time! We didnt have to sit for boring SSD or NA..its like sittin' for a greek an' latin class..guess this is what college life is all about..after passin' out what are the odds that we get oppurtunities like this ever again???an' that too with our very own dear pals:)..was imagining mega's expression when we tell her of our adventure:))..C ya

Moi first blog:)

Finally my very first blog!!! Being my first one...would love all my readers(if any do turn up to read this) to know a bit about me..so tht u guys can decide whether u really wanna read the rest of my blogs;) Lets see,...why is talking about urself so hard to do???I cant seem to find anything to tell u about me rather than maybe, im a 'human being':D...hehe...i know what ur thinking right now!this isnt funny at all right???!Ah!Thts it!!!I have a very bad sense of humour(phew) Well, im just another ordinary gal trying to figure out whats goin' on in my life, where i'm heading to, whats keeping me alive in this insane world, what brought me here and why the hell am i typing crap right now!!! Im really sorry...just had an argument with a friend..nothing serious..stupid me!(as always)..so just a little moody,which is goin' to reflect badly here..but i need to publish this..coz its now or never!!!(me being the worlds no.1 procrastinator!)..wish i had shown as much interest in studyin! Lemme start with what i like and like doin'... 1) reading reading and more reading(im in love with books...wait!not boring theory books;)..but fiction..an' Sheldon is my favourite:)..no one can beat him! 2) drawing an' painting(im not hussain bhai or anything:D...its just a past time and do it once in a while:) 3) playing the keyboard(i do that when im in a terrible mood!it really helps!) 4) listening to people talk(being a pretty silent person i prefer listening to talking...so u'll find me talking very rarely:)...except when im with close friends:D 5) thinking...(about anything and everything...i hope i dont sound like a maniac) 6) going for long walks with friends... 7) writing...(why do u think im here!) 8) listening to music...and the list goes on an' on...(lemme not bore u) At last..my favourite!..Things i hate..hehe 1) unpunctuality(makes me lose my nerves..not that i am exactly punctual:D) 2) people who use the word f*** and a******...i simply hate thm...donno why! 3) boasting...(please dont mind coz i might run from the spot) 4) thats it..this list isnt endless like the one above...i can tolerate anything other than the above three:) I've written too much for a novice...and guess what???bloggin can be such an eye opener...coz i just realized im no good at writing!!!aargh!!!C ya