My 2 Independance Days

Here i am..'enlightened' enough to actually post again:) Don't worry!..I am NOT going to bore you with how we got our independance or how our heroes strived for it or how many people laid down their lives so that we could sit here and blog in peace:D..well i leave that to our history books which you can find in your libraries or on wikipedia or wherever i.e..even if i wanted to write about our 61 years of freedom i wouldn't have been able to do justice to it coz i myself would have had to look up somewhere, make a study and then blog on it..as i'm really really bad at indian history or for that matter any kind of history!: Weird as it may seem..i happen to have 2 I-days a year..well one of them obviously on August 15th i.e yesterday and the other on February 14th:D:D..valentines day:) Freedom was one among my various "things-i-cannot-live-without"..actually it topped the list and i just couldn't do without it..i need absolute freedom when it comes to..lets see..My personal space..i can get really irritated if people become too intrusive about me or my personal matters..i just feel its none of their business..sounds really rude i know..but i can't help it. Ok..now i'm venturing out of what i was supposed to blog about..yeah my 2 I'Days:) Well first about my I-day yesterday..it was the most embaressing i ever had..we had this small sports meet at our association with kids and adults alike..and there were just 4 gals in my age group..and we had various games like 'lemon and spoon', 'sack race' and 'shot put'..i took part in it with complete enthusiasm..and to my horror came out 4th in all the events:..i guess even the 10 year old kids would have done better than me..i was just so pathetic i don't want to talk about it anymore:..Let's move on to more relevant topics:D Feb 14th this year was pretty eventful..good and bad really..for a whole lot of reasons..anyways.. A few friends and i decided to celebrate it as our Independance Day(that's how i got the idea for this blog)..I-day coz we were all single:p. Let's name my single friends 'mac' and 'hope'.So mac, hope and I decided to hang out that day..maybe go to the zoo or to ccd or wherever just to celebrate being 'single' and feel good about it(didn't feel really good actually..but we refused to accept it:p..we pretended we were happy:D)..much to the frustration of our committed pals who we at no cost would let them join us >:)..we thought it was an insult to the singles gang:D. We never went out though coz we had college that day and we couldn't cut the afternoons as we had to attend our labs:(..but we still cherished the fact that we were free in a sense..free to talk to anyone..free from the worries involved in an affair..well that's why i restrained myself from involving in one all those years:) I've seen so many of my friends being involved and i never really agreed to the idea..it was like someone having a constant watch over you..24*7..where you are..what you are doing precisely every other second..and for the freedom lover that i am, i wouldn't have tolerated such a situation..be it my parents either.. Thankfully as i realized my parents aren't so..they've given me all the freedom in the world(except for a few necessary restrictions)..but what's interesting is, they know absolutely everything about what goes on in my life without me having to utter a word at home:..i don't know 'HOW' but sometimes i really get this feeling they've hired a spy just to know about my whereabouts..but i don't complain as long as i get my freedom and mom and dad aren't worried about me:) Anyways things changed, for good or bad i don't really know..but my views changed completely after that..drastically or for that matter.I didn't mind not having that much cherished freedom any longer..I didn't mind someone worrying about me 24*7..I indeed loved the attention i got..This was in fact a turning point in my life..in all sense.. But as i believe now all of a sudden since 2 days.."Everything that has a beginning has an end"(courtesy:The Matrix Revolutions:D)..and so i'm back at square one if you would have rightly guessed:..luckily or unluckily i don't know. What i know is..i've never felt worse in my entire life..i still feel so every now and then..it just refuses to go away..though i'm still trying to (as everyone advises)..'move on'! I literally lost 2 best friends in the process..and i felt like a total idiot(sensless, gullible and stupid too) and regret can gnaw at your happiness pretty quickly(now beckhams gonna be impressed with this line:p) But frankly speaking i don't 'TOTALLY' regret what happened to me..it was like Andrew Dufresne in the 'Shawshank Redemption" who swam through sh1t and came out clean at the other end:)..(people who've seen the movie will understand..best ever i've seen till date:)..free again..yeah i was free all over again but in a different sense altogether..my views and perspectives on people, friends and myself changed..and on what freedom actually means to me. I learnt so much when i look back..i miss a hell lot of things..but at the same time i cherish a whole lot of moments even more:)..so it wasn't bad altogether..as everyone said i moved on..i mean still trying to actually..i know i'll come out clean at the other end anyways;)..someday:) Whatever i went through..at the end of the day i also realized it finally somes down to just 2 people who would give a damn about you.Mom and Dad.If anything like unconditional love exists, its only from them an no one else.NO ONE! So now, as it's back to square one, i had to actually apply what i learnt..like all engineering students have to:p..and so the first step was to make a pledge:D..like all indians have to:p Oh no..not the 'all indians are my brothers and sisters'..(i'd never pledge that..its just so complicated:D)..but pretty different. And since matters have changed..i really wonder how i'm gonna spend my next I-day..14th feb 2009..it'll probably be with Z..if both of us keep up with the pledge i.e.:D So i guess that's it..now i hate ending a post because i really don't know how to conclude properly..i just leave stuff hanging in the air:D..but since everything that has a beginning has an end(ok now i'm obsessed with this line)..this is my end..o sorry not my end..the end of the post i mean:D(sorry..couldn't help the pj)